2024 in review

December 11, 2024791 words4 mins read

Ladoni

This is the last article of 2024, see you next year. Happy holidays!
Friend, you need to finally learn your lesson. What you’re chasing doesn’t exist. Only the promise of it does. That promise will lure you, bring you deeper in, coax ever more time and energy out of you, because you think there’s something behind the door at the end of the tunnel, a soundless roar or a brief tingling fleshy lightness, and so you take trembling steps forward and assure yourself, out loud, that this is what you want. What you will find, if you follow the tunnel to its end, make the secret combinations, speak the passcodes, and open the door for yourself, is that there was never anything behind it but a bare brick wall.

Every time people have to be reminded of this fact. Every time, you let yourself dream of hidden vaults, rumored chambers long-lost, secret corridors guarded with countersigns. Every time, you find the same door, open it, and sigh, promising yourself not to be deceived so easily again. And every time, as soon as you’re out of the tunnel, on the favored walks, under the skies and stars, you dream again, of enchanting mysteries waiting only for someone to find them.

This year can be summed up this way:

We make use of a service already existing without paying for what could be dirt-cheap if it wasn’t run by profiteering gluttons, and you call us criminals. We explore… and you call us criminals. We seek after knowledge… and you call us criminals. We exist without skin color, without nationality, without religious bias… and you call us criminals. You build atomic bombs, you wage wars, you murder, cheat, and lie to us and try to make us believe it’s for our own good, yet we’re the criminals. The Mentor, The Conscience of a Hacker

Best

  • Movie watched this year: A Place on Earth, 2001. The idea of the “Temple of Love” is extremely simple: peace and happiness for everyone on Earth. We kiss beggars, hug cripples, and give love to those who are squeamishly ignored! All this, of course, is wonderful, but it makes no sense. And the script perfectly, I would even say brilliantly conveys this senselessness – a passionate outburst of goodness and light at the beginning turns into a series of catastrophes and monstrous, ugly, inevitable degradation. Some scenes are so stunning that you want to swear loudly and dirty, and then throw something heavy at the screen - so much shock is caused by what is happening in this film. Moreover, the trick of the director’s style is that he shows the most terrible things distantly, without strain and intensity, but in such a way that it takes your breath away.
  • Movie released this year: good joke, right? Sloppywood is dead.
  • Music album listened this year: The Will to Death by John Frusciante.
  • Song of the year: nothing.
  • Book read this year: An Island to Oneself, by Tom Neale.

Worst

  • The world.

Most listened songs

I’ll let Music.app speak for itself:

ArtistTitlePlays
Mondo GrossoLabyrinth709
John FruscianteThe Will to Death626
ДРУГ feat. SirotkinОблака513
Alexander Hristov & WallmersLet’s Go Retro505
SirotkinВыше домов463
Manic Street PreachersSuicide is Painless449
NepalTrajectoire342
Chris ReaOnly to Fly239
Pablo Nouvelle feat. Sam WillsOn The Line227
Therapy?A Moment of Clarity197

Movies watched

I watched 227 movies this year, most of them being favorites because I wanted to review and add them to the notes. The oldest movie watched this year was Man with a Movie Camera, 1929, by Dziga Vertov, and the newest was Underwater, 2020, by William Eubank.

From my current list of 196 favorite movies, 54 of them were watched or re-watched this year.

Website

  • 42 articles, 38,195 words worth, down from 91 articles and 61,898 words in 2023, including posts, projects, reviews and excluding guest posts, bookmarks and notes, of course.
  • 1,046 notes, 57,003 words worth, up from 816 notes and 30,270 words in 2023.
  • used 1,33GB of disk space, up from 1,15GB in 2023.
  • more website statistics.

Others

  • This year I quit World of Warcraft for good. My opinion on Blizzard and their game still stands. Trash.
  • I participated in the OCC 2024, something I wanted to do since 2023. Maybe I’ll do OCC 2025 too.

In closure, true optimism in the spirit of the human condition and of the human race in general – its possibility and potential to better itself – is the most important feeling we can gift to the youth who will come after us.

Fuck nihilism. Fuck lying in the mud and taking your beatings. And fuck compromising.